Astrology Explored

July 30, 2009

My birthday is: 8/1/1960, Brooklyn, NY, 1:05 PM. In a nutshell, I
have been going through hell on many levels, and I simply do not see any end in sight. I have a child with autism, and she is going through a particularly bad spell lately. My financial stresses are growing in leaps and bounds, and here too, I feel I have run out of options. In addition, I am having health problems that I have never had before - ovarian cysts, and an epstein-barr flare-up. I have been married for 20 years, and my husband and I are definitely soul-mates, but we are always crashing up against the same rocks in our relationship.

I guess what I am saying is I am tired - so very, very tired. I am
hanging on by a thread. I don’t know what to do anymore, and I don’t even know what you can tell me, except, can you look at my chart and give me any insight at all?

I am sorry to hear that you are going through a very rough patch. Obviously, a situation as complex as yours can’t be fully addressed in the confines of one column.

Your chart has significant challenges literally written right into it. Your moon is in challenge aspect to the asteroid Chiron, a potent symbol of issues that cry out for healing. Your Moon is opposite the planet of your survival instincts, Mars, and Mars is also in challenge aspect to Chiron. What this symbol says to me is that you are driven by powerful emotions that are often at cross purposes with you own best interests. In other words, you let your heart rule your head. While we are often admonished to listen more to our hearts and less to our heads, in your situation this is rather like doing too much of a good thing. Why? Because Chiron is sitting there, challenging your heart and your survival instincts to make some intrinsic changes in how you operate.

How do you operate? With three planets in the sign of Leo in your tenth house of career and public image, you like to work from center stage. You take great pride in how you handle your life, and you can be prideful in the choices you’ve made. You need the attention of others, and when you don’t get it in the measure you feel you deserve you tend to feel let down and even depressed. There is nothing sadder than a Leo who feels that they aren’t appreciated. Certainly, in a situation where you hauling all the freight, doing all the work in and out of the home, taking care of the emotional, physical and financial work of taking care of a family, there literally is not enough appreciation in the world that is going to feel like you are getting what you deserve. Yet you can, from the challenge from your Moon to your Uranus/Venus combination sitting in the the tenth house close to your Sun, be quite stubborn in insisting on keep on a course of action, even if it is apparent that course simply isn’t working.

Another thing you should be aware of, and maybe this is something you have heard from others, that symbolized by your Sun in Leo in challenge aspect to Neptune, you have the tendency not to see things clearly. So your husband can’t hold a job, drinks too much, won’t help around the house, he’s still a great guy right? Put just that way, in hard light of reality, it doesn’t sound so, does it? Yet that Leo pride of yours trips you up. Having made your choice, it should have been the right choice, and nothing is going to change your mind that it wasn’t the right choice to begin with.

Yet here you are, worn out and at the end of your rope.

Things aren’t going to change on their own. The Universe doesn’t work like that. We have our challenges for a reason, and the reason is for the growth of the soul. And as tough as all this is for you, you have an excellent reason to make some positive changes, your daughter. Contrary to what some people may think, an autistic child is not locked in a world of their own, they are overly open to the emotions of others. Your daughter is only reacting to the stresses at home and she has no good way to express her distress.

Things will get better when you find the following for yourself:

Emotional support–if you can’t afford the services of a therapist, contact the United Way or community mental health services. You need to talk to someone about the stress you are under. If that doesn’t work for you, your faith of origin usually has counseling service available through clergy. There are also self help groups where people who are going through the same things you are meet, talk and help each other.

Financial counseling–you must speak to someone about your finances and your options for clearing up debt.

Legal counseling–though you are not ready yet, you should speak to someone about your options should you need to get your husband to leave the home.

I am concerned about you, not just because of the stress you are under, but because you have communicated a certain amount of hopelessness about your situation. You are not alone and you have an amazing amount of resilience that will carry you through. Things will change when you make the decision to make them change. You can not imagine now how much better you will feel once you reduce the amount of chaos in your home. You will be able to think, you will be able to relax, you will be able to breathe. And so will your daughter.

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